Monday, October 15, 2007

It's Been a Year

Sunday has been a difficult day, the first anniversary of my mother’s death. Bebo and I went out to the cemetery this morning, but then she had a family thing she had to attend so I spent the day alone. Mother has constantly been on my mind, flashbacks to her last day. I would have thought that after a year the ache would ease, but it hasn’t. My mother was so much a part of my life, my support in times of need. We were very close. Now I start my second year without her and I can only hope that it’s better than the last. Thanks for putting up with my bit of self-pity, you are true friends.

14 comments:

Brandy said...

I know it sounds cliched, but it does get easier as time goes on. And you've survived the first year, always the hardest.
My thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs.

Lis said...

*hugs*

Diane said...

She was a major part of your life - you lived with her and cared for her, for goodness sake. Stop beating yourself up.

The coming year *should* be easier. Remember you've not exactly been well either, and so your resistance would be low.

Shirley said...

The first year is always the most difficult, and anniversaries are always hard. The second year should be slightly easier. Hopefully, the flashbacks will become memories that make you smile instead of cry.
Sending lots of cyber hugs.

Dru said...

{{{{{{{Bailey}}}}}}}

It will get easier.

Devon Ellington said...

Love to you. It's so hard, and all we can do is love you through it.

Susan said...

Your mom was such a big part of your life I think it wouldn't be normal not to feel her loss as deeply as you do. It will take time but it will get easier.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.
*hugs*

spyscribbler said...

*Hugs* I envy you your closeness. Gradually, very gradually, one can smile instead of cry when remembering. I hope you have more smiles than tears this year. :-)

susie said...

The first year is the hardest. I can't believe it's been a year. (((Bailey)))

Watched "The Great Raid" Sunday night and really enjoyed it.

Michele said...

Oh, my, a year already?
HUGS to you Bailey!
Can never have enough hugs when you are feeling such poignant emotions.

We're here for you!
And I"m sure she's watching over you.

Marty said...

I can't imagine how much you must miss her, Bailey. I'm a day late and wish I wasn't. Huge hugs.

Lexi said...

For me when I lost my dad, it was the 6 months- year, year and a half that were actually the hardest for me. As others have said, it will get easier. Just remember too that your mom would want you to take care of yourself and to get through this and to remember the good times.

Toni Anderson said...

Hugs sweety. The first anniversary is the worst. Hurts the most. After that mine have always become more bittersweet. But you know all that. I hope she's in a better place now watching out for her baby.

Shesawriter said...

I know where you're at. I go through the same thing every June 1st. It was my dad's last day.

(((hugs)))