Monday, October 16, 2006

Go Meretta

Today begins the vote for the American Title III contest and I feel that Toni gives the best reason to vote and the link to Meretta's website.

I'm okay. Dealing. Numb at times. A little spooked by the empty house, although mom slept for most of her last month here, there was still someone here. I felt this way right after my father died in hospice in our living room - I think it's also the subconscious thought of someone having died here - and watching too many horror movies.

I read every one of your comments - your support has meant a lot to me. Thank you.

40 comments:

Toni Anderson said...

Bailey. Take some time. Do all the things you've not been able to do, like sleep and read and anything! I hope your family are supporting you through this.

Scott said...

I don't know what to say Eve, literally. There is a jumble of words in my brain, but nothing stacks up. I just hope you are ok. I'm terribly sorry for your pain. Please accept my long-distance hug.

Diane said...

Toni's right. You need to be doing stuff you've not been able to do, once you feel less numb, etc. It's going to be hard, you know that. But then it'll start to get better again. Hugs as ever.

Susan said...

Bailey, I think what your feeling is very normal. No matter how prepared we are for someone we love to pass on it is still hard.

Take care of yourself and know that you continue to be in my thoughts and prayers.

Meretta said...

I think it's a good idea to sleep and rest. Let your mind and your body do some healing, Bailey. Thinking of you and thanks for the AT3 support.

catslady said...

My condolences Bailey/Eve. Take care of yourself. Now it's time for you. {{{extra hugs}}}

Siobhan said...

I've been thinking of you a lot today and wondering how you are. It has been good to read your post. You've shown great strength and courage. Take care of yourself and let others take care of you too. (((Hugs)))

raine said...

Agree--sleep, rest, read, relax.

And get out of the house whenever you can. Fresh air and change of scenery will do you good.

Glenice said...

Hang in there Sweetie!!! See ya soon!

Brandy said...

Toni's right. Sleep, read, spoil yourself right now. It'll help with the numbness. We care about you. And just want you to be okay. Eventually you will feel like you again.

Jo Leigh said...

It's so very hard to lose Mom. But I always considered myself blessed that I got to take care of her in her last days. I know you'll feel good about that the rest of your life. It's just time now, and adjustments. But you'll make it.

Carol said...

It's always hard to lose someone we love and it's normal to feel numb. It's a hard thing to accept. Getting out and keeping busy helps. Big hugs!

Stacy Dawn said...

Time. It's all I know to say. Thinking about you.

Deana said...

Eve I know there is nothing I can say except that I do think of you and I know after all that time with your mother being sick it is a time of mixed human emotions for you. It would have to be.
You were such a good daughter. I hope that eases things.
Now it is time for you to spread your wings....I know the numbness will pass. It is going to be very tough for you for quite a while.
I am sending you hugs...day after day!

Deana said...

And you get out of that house! Feel the wind, rain, sun anything on your face....Time for you to live girl!

Marty said...

It will feel strange to do things for yourself, but it will help a lot. Large hugs and thoughts.

Lexi said...

And we'll continue to give what support we can.

Fannie said...

There is nothing God can't do if we let him. Get out of the house if only to walk around the block. Any change of scenery helps. Talk about your Mom, good times and bad. I believe you will be stronger after all you have been through. Keep the rest of your family close. You all need this. My prayers are with all of you. You are loved by so many. We all want to help in any way we can so please don't try to bear this by yourself. All my love and a big hug are coming your way.

Shirley said...

I agree with everyone else; you need time to heal. Get outside and feel the sun on your face (or rain and wind). Sleep, rest, read, relax and sleep some more.
I know that, as time passes, you'll feel so glad that you were able to be with your mom and take such good care of her.
Sending hugs.

Devon Ellington said...

Take the time. Rest up. Burn a white candle and some beautiful incense in the house, thinking of the good times you had with your mother. Allow yourself to grieve, and also allow the house to slowly fill back up with life. There's no timetable for this -- take whatever time you need.

Know that there are a lot of people here who love you.

Loreth Anne White said...

(((Bailey)))). Thinking of you. How are the cats doing with the change in your home? I hope they are of some small comfort in the quiteness. I know my Brunswick and Lincoln can always somehow detect when I am sad, and they come and sit close.
L
XX

Peggy said...

Bailey, I'm so sorry. I just read your blog today. My greatest sympathy. Hope you're holding up alright. Take care and all the time you need to heal emotionally.

Sandy J said...

Thinking about you, Bailey. {{{hugs}}}

Dennie McDonald said...

continued prayers for you and the family -

ruby55 said...

Continuing to keep you all in my thoughts and prayers.

Brandy said...

Thinking about you here, too, sweetie.

Glenice said...

just checking in...I know you have family there now...talk to you soon!!

ruby55 said...

I'm still with you there in my thoughts and prayers for peace for and in your whole family.

Lots of love

Sigrun said...

Thinking of you and praying.

Saskia Walker said...

I hope you're coping through this difficult time. Sending hugs.

Diane said...

Dropping by with a hug.

Stacy Dawn said...

Just checking in to see how you are doing ((((((((((hugs))))))))))

Meretta said...

Thinking about you lots, Bailey.

ruby55 said...

You're still in my thoughts and prayers. Hope things aren't too stressful.

Hugs.

Olga said...

Bailey, I'm deeply sorry, and I hope that one day pain will go away. (((((((())))))))))).

Anonymous said...

I'm with you in my thoughts and prayers. Hope you have a good night and a good rest.

Brandy said...

Just checking in to let you know that I'm thinking of you, and saying orayers for you.

Michele said...

Its 10/23, just checking in to let you know I'm still plugging for you, thinking of you and wishing you well.

Anonymous said...

My thoughts and prayers are still with you. I hope you're relaxing as well as getting things done that need to be. Take it easy as much as you can.

Rachael said...

Why dont you go get a pedicure and your nails done? Maybe even a haircut? It might help with the numbness to have some hands on beauty done for you. Treat yourself to a new book. Spend some time in the bookstore. Eat a piece of chocolate. You are in my thoughts and prayers. The pain will go away and you will feel better with time. God bless.